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It’s logical, really:

  1.  Life is happening out there, not in our heads.
  2. Strokes of genius usually come when we’re not staring down the problem.
  3. Our bodies physically respond with cortisol when we turn a circumstance into a problem.
  4. Cortisol is the hormone that slowly throws an unhappy veil over the most wonderful people.

Being stuck in our own thoughts, we’re reaffirming the neural pathways of our society’s 2 big lies:

1. “Only the things that seem logical to you are possible for you,” and

2. “You’ve only got yourself and your cleverness to rely on.”

Here are 6 disrupting questions.

“Are those two statements true?

Is any internal commentary life-giving enough to deserve my attention?

Is it real?

Would I like to have a new thought? One I’ve never had before?

The kind of thought that would get you closer to that one flavor of happiness that keeps eluding me?

I haven’t had that thought yet… or I would be there already. Right?

New thoughts have no room to put down roots in a crowded mind. And they won’t ever grow without the light of our attention, if our attention keeps growing all the usual thoughts. All the “processing.”


But here’s the good news:

Life arranges itself beautifully around us when we take our grubby thinking fingers out of its business. 

It’s a very scary thing to do, because it feels like releasing control and trusting.

The alternative is much scarier.

• • •

I lived from age 9-24 in my head.

The first ten years were brutal, and I didn’t even know it. I thought it was normal to have panic attacks. I thought it was normal to have an upset stomach all the time, and to not be able to remember having “a fun time.” After some family trouble happened when I was nine, I decided to be responsible and never let anything bad happen ever again. I migrated all my vitality and attention to my mind.

I was praised for the person I became. Responsible, adult, dutiful, quiet, independent, never weak and never a burden. Numb.

Eventually, that turned into fatigue, isolation, IBS, etc. etc. I didn’t have a total health breakdown, but I felt gross or tired or uncomfortable or terrified or depressed all the time, even when I was distracted by a happy conversation. For so long that seemed normal.

That’s what’s scary – we ooh and aah at big dramatic stories of very sick people who then overcome and write books and win gold medals. Meanwhile, we go along in our sub-human experience, tainted with basic stress and relationship issues, as the “normal” waiting-room for people who haven’t figured out how to be happy yet. 

• • •

Let’s leave sub-human behind.

This past year I experienced something that showed me how sub-human that state really is. I started to completely release my thinking for moments at a time, and all of my surroundings would pop into HD. It startled me at first – I would have total euphoria and relaxation in my body. It was this feeling of being carried along in a beautiful story, like nothing really existed. Fiction and ‘reality’ began to blur, and before long, everything felt like either a savory moment or total play.

It’s hard to describe, so I started to paint it. Mythology and great stories can give a gateway to that place, so I started to write those too.

• • •

I’m giving you what I’ve found.

My life now is a series of inexplicable events that are leading me toward the dream I’ve always had without my control. I get the sense that life wants to live through every person that way, and we just dim its expression with our assessments and fears and thinking.

I have moved from the matrix of “normal” anxiety to peace. Euphoria, even. I mean, complete contentment. I feel all kinds of emotions still – I even feel afraid sometimes, but it’s like weather that passes, it has no power over me anymore. I can create now.

And everything I create for you is a portal to get there.